Our Home – A Testament to God’s Grace

We’ve lived in our little house for about 9 months now. Before that we spent the first year together living with Chason’s sweet parents. Why? Well, because Chason and i decided that we couldn’t stand one more day living states away from each other so we eloped and decided to figure out the living situation later.  We looked at homes and land and decided to choose the land and build there. However, we sorta rushed that decision and it turned that it would cost a lot to really get it livable (had to put a driveway and other pricey stuff), so we moved in with the parents for a while. Honestly, i know living with your in-laws sounds not very fun, but i really enjoyed our time there. It gave me the chance to really get to know and get comfortable fast with Chason’s parents, a thing that would have taken longer if we lived somewhere else. It was a blessing and i am so grateful to my in-laws for letting us stay!

So, a little back story. Chason has a home he built when he was 18 on land his parents gave him. However, because he was divorced before we married he moved out and rented it to a couple.  Fast forward to December of last year, the renters lease was up. So, with lots of thought, prayer and talking we decided to move into his old house and make it our home.

This was no easy decision for either of us, Chason had to deal with hurt that happened there, and i had to deal with, well, the past that happened there. Honestly, the first time he took me to see the house i wanted to run out crying. Not because i didn’t like it, it was great and the kitchen is just what i always wanted, but because in every room i walked through i saw him with another. And that my friends, hurts like hell! I was terrified of living in shadows of his past marriage and i was worried it would bring back old memories and hurts for him. It was scary.

That day we went out to dinner. Both of us felt down and scared and needed to get out. Over dinner we talked about our fears of moving in the house. The walk through had depressed us both and we didn’t know if we should move in. I was then reminded of God’s grace, and how my life as well as Chason’s is a testament to it, and because of that i am always talking about how amazing the grace of God is. I will tell anyone that i believe that God makes all things new. But, if i truly believed that, i mean truly, then why was i scared to move in the house? I can’t say i believe something and then when the time comes for me to put my money where my mouth is back out out because of fear.

So, we talked. And talked. And debated and weighed our options and in the end decided to trust God and make this house our home.

After a little remodeling Chason and i moved in a few days after Christmas…and you know what?

God made it new.

Once we moved in there was no weirdness, no thoughts of the past. I didn’t see him with anyone else when i walked in the rooms. I just saw how blessed we  were to have a home. A home that my husband before we met and when he was 18 and i was 13, built and his grandpa helped him install his kitchen cabinets.

Before we moved in i would talk walks around the house and pray over it. Pray that God would bless this decision and that He would take away the past and make all things new for us in this house. And He did.

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(Before our new floors were put in Chason and i wrote scriptures on our floors boards. These are just two of the ones we wrote)

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I’m not saying that there haven’t been hard moments, that i sometimes don’t think of this homes past or that when mail comes for an ex i don’t want to punch the post man and rip up the letter into tiny pieces (yes, I’ve done that…not the punching the mail man, just the tearing up in tiny pieces and burying it in the garbage…you know you’d do the same) but there have been so many more good moments than bad. This is were Chason and i cook meals together, laugh, play games, talk….this is where we had our first Christmas tree and will be home to many holiday celebrations. I am so thankful for this home of ours, so blessed to have a home and roof over our heads. I love our yard and the moss and mushrooms that grow there and i love my kitchen where i have so much space to bake my heart out. I always dreamed of being a wife, taking care of my own home…cooking dinner, doing laundry, cleaning and decorating, putting up family photos on the wall. And now i have it. God is so good my friends! He is so generous and kind and full of grace!

This is truly our home. And it is truly a testament to the grace of God and His amazing and beautiful ability to make all things new.

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“Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” – Isaiah 43:19

“And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.” – Revelations 21:5 

~Cecily

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Just Being Honest – Marriage, God and Hosea’s Wife

I’ve been going through the Wife After God devotional as well as reading blogs from other Christian wives for the past week or so. I’m trying to surround my self with good examples and encouragement from women with the same Godly goals for life and marriage.

It has been a blessing to say the least.

I’ve been thinking about Gods divine plan and purpose for life and marriage, as well as the story of Hosea and his wife and how it all relates to my life.

If you have spoken to me in the past 8 months you have probably heard how Chason and I have had a crazy stress filled work year. Our calendar has been full with big projects that demand all our time,energy and sanity. All this to say that our personal lives and marriage have really been out on the back burner. Though not by choice, it has taken a toll on us both.

My husband is the hardest working person I know and I respect him so deeply. He is smart and creative and just the best person you will ever work with. He sacrifices himself everyday for our little budding family. But, the down side is he doesn’t always have the time to spend with me. You know, that deep just you and me indulging in each other time.

I miss that

And I have been feeling pretty down and lonely because if it.

I miss that emotional intimacy we have always had. I miss just spending time talking and sharing thoughts and ideas and stories like we used to. I miss him.

And then I got to thinking about God. And my relationship with Him. The bible says that our God is a jealous God…no, He doesn’t want your iPhone or your “success”. He wants your love and time. Just like you want your spouses.

God designed the marriage relationship to reflect His love for us. So wouldn’t it make sense that when we neglect to spend time growing and nurturing our relationship with Him that He would feel as hurt as we do when our spouse doesn’t?

Wouldn’t it make sense that God misses just talking and spending time with us, that he misses intimacy too?

This hit me today. I have been relying so much in being intimately fulfilled by Chason and not so much by my Creator. Chason is amazing but he is not perfect and will fail sometimes but God will not. I can’t base my security solely on my husband. That us not fair to either of us. There will always be a hole in me only my God can fill.

Maybe God has let this lack of time with my husband happen in order to get my attention and make me see that He misses me and I need Him.

A blog by Mandy at Biblical Homemaking really touched my soul. She was talking about Hosea and how his wife Gomer went back to her old life of, well, Whoredom as the bible calls it, after she had Hosea’s children. I thought of myself then. God gave me this huge blessing of being a wife and i turned around and forgot Him and in the process clung to my old vices when things got hard.

I think this season with all it’s business and stress is here to teach me a lesson if i let it – No one can take the place of your Lord and Savior and love you as perfectly and unconditionally as God does, not even your spouse.  As women of God who are now wives we must make the time to be in God’s Word daily and find approval and intimacy in Him, if not we risk putting a burden on our spouse which, even if he wanted to, he cannot fulfill.

~ Cecily

I am a Georgia Peach

I’ve lived in Georgia for about a year and a half now. “Officially” i moved here in March 2012…but unofficially I’ve been in the peach state since that January.

The adjustment to not only a new state but marriage life all happened at the same time and it’s safe to say i had a very hard time getting used to it all. However, i did and am now loving this new life I’ve been blessed with!

I think my favorite thing about Georgia (other than my hubby…and the sweet tea) are the beautiful landscapes and abundant presence of huge green trees and wonderful woodland areas. I’ve always dreamed of my own little fairyland with woodland creatures, moss and mushrooms…and now i have it.

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At any random moment a family of deer, chipmunks or bunnies can pass you by making you feel like you live in Snow White’s forest. And i love it (my garden on the other hand does not lol).

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Another thing i love is being able to take long walks in the woods behind our home and around the lake down the street. I feel like i have become so much more aware of nature and the beauty around me since i moved here. I enjoy being outdoors much more than inside these days.

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There’s a little undeveloped subdivision behind our woods that my husband and i walk with a small lake, peach trees and beautiful pink thistle. I enjoy taking slow walks and reflecting there.

 

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The fall season here is the prettiest I’ve ever seen. Orange and red leaves cover the ground and cool breezes kiss your checks.

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And the spring is green and full of blooming flowers – A far cry from the TX coast where i grew up.

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All this to say, i was wrong when i said Texas was were i always wanted to live. While i’ll always love my original home state and miss it like crazy, i really do enjoy having such a pretty new place to discover and make my own. Georgia is home now…i am a Texas Bluebonnet who has started growing into a Georgia Peach…who would have thought 🙂

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~Cecily